if it makes you feel any better, I grew up being bullied and conventionally unattractive+ double the weight I am now, now that I had a “glow up” and am conventionally attractive I don’t get treated any better. at the end of the day negative people will be negative people :/ I only got happier when I started treating myself better
I do absolutely understand this tho and it’s a valid feeling, however people are so fake to me now and it’s hard to weed out who likes me for looks and who likes me for my personality (which is far more important to me). I reccomend that you change your perspective on yourself first, everyone deserves to love themselves!!
to give u real advice, finding a friend group that likes you no matter what you look like is gonna help ur confidence the most. if you have that, nurture it and remind urself that these people love you. but i get it that the bigger problem is society. and while we can’t make that go away, we can shift our perception a little. brains are so so powerful. if you just start lying to yourself even if u don’t believe it, saying you’re confident, people like being around you, you’re desirable, -
- and people like you, it WILL eventually help a little. i won’t pretend how the world treats you isn’t important. but all we can change is how we feel abt ourselves, and that internal sense totally changes quality of life. i’m currently in an insecure rut rn (i have bdd) but there have been times when i did this, i faked it until i made it and focused on the people who liked me, and eventually started feeling really confident and good abt myself. shit happened to me that made me lose it, but bc
i was there before, i know i can do it again. so the best thing you can do is be kind and don’t shy away from being loud and taking up space and being friendly to people. soon ur brain will realize that you have a lot more to offer and your looks don’t matter to you as much. it’s so so hard though and it doesn’t change the larger world but it helps. rewiring that thinking takes time