I feel like I’m discrediting him. Like when we hangout and call it’s great, I feel so cared for. But as soon as I’m not actually talking to him I tweak. And I’m not gonna tell him this obviously cause IK it’s my OCD and it’s something I wanna handle outside of our relationship cause I don’t think it’d be healthy to bring up, but omfg. It sucks. And it sucks knowing I’m irrational and I’m still so focused on it. Like I spend HOURS rehashing conversations and rereading text messages
I have paranoid anxiety, and the best advice i can give you to help you with your relationship anxiety is to just constantly remind yourself to trust him, and that if he didn’t like you it would be obvious. And just keep reminding yourself of that every time you have doubts. Kinda like a manifestation routine, if you just keep saying it, you’ll believe it