i have been in the most grueling situationships and never in my life have they explicitly called me annoying. this man is being mean to you and he’s not even trying to hide it or sugar coat it. he’s dismissing your feelings and telling you he doesn’t care or prioritize you. honestly the way he talks to you disgusts me. he should be concerned and asking about your grandfathers health and supporting you, not making you feel small
I said why? He said “lol you’re annoying and the boys and I are going to be playing fifa” and I said “did I do something wrong? I just thought you would be excited to see me?” And he said “ yeah on Sunday lol” and before you mention other girls… no lol I have his passwords and the key to his place. But idk I just am hurt cus I thought he’d be somewhat caring or excited. He made me cry this morning bc I called to vent and ask for his opinion and he answered the phone “ what do you want” and was
No you guys are right, I just I’m always driving to him, staying with him, feeding both of us wether that’s me buying food or cooking it, I cut his hair for free, I clean his apartment, like I do so much. But him always being this mean to me is really hurting me and getting to me especially bc I don’t really feel pretty or attractive. (I put on a couple pounds lol) but idk. I try so hard for him to like me bc when we first started he was perfect. But he did a compete change. I just don’t know
So he said “Y is it so bad to have a few extra days apart lol I promise you it’s not that deep” and I said “ well it’s deep to me bc of my grandpa and I just sorta expect you would try to comfort me or give me the time and day bc I know if this was you I’d give me all to comfort u and be there for you” he said
“I understand it’s just i haven’t had this time away in a while and i just been working and idk y lately maybe it’s the heat but it’s been rough lol and ik what u been through & im sorry it’s been so hard i wanna be there for u i just know i wouldn’t be able to give u my all cus im so tired lol”
So then I said “ ok I understand and then he said it doesn’t have to be till Sunday he just wanted a night off cus he’s tired from work” idk yall my feelings are hurt af. I’m just tired of being treated like I’m worthless. I deserve someone who’s excited to see me or give me the time and day. I just don’t know what to do.
girl i’m so sorry :( but he’s lying to you, he could absolutely make the effort and he’s choosing not to. him saying sorry and claiming he wants to be there for you are just empty words that continue the cycle. because he’s been so mean, a tiny little “nice” message like this seems so much better but i promise you that message too is so dismissive and insane. he’s saying just enough to keep you wrapped around his finger but putting no effort into caring about your well-being
it’s never going to be the right time to let go. there will never be a moment where you feel like you can do it. you’re so attached to his validation because he has made you feel like you need it. you just have to force yourself to pull the plug and get your friends and loved ones to hold you accountable and support you. it’s going to be a grieving process and it will suck but it also will get so so much better eventually. and you will wish you left even sooner. you gotta relearn how to be kind-
- to urself and speaking from experience, it gets so much easier when you’re not with someone who makes you feel like you’re not good enough. his behavior has more to do with HIM than it will ever have to do with you. he’s mean because he’s lazy and insecure. but you are kind and generous and you put effort into things. you’re just gonna need to redirect that effort into yourself, your hobbies, your friends. give that love somewhere to go and then one day it won’t need to go to him anymore
of course girl, i’m so sorry you ended up here and i know how hard it is to be stuck in it. you might find out that your attachment had more to do with the way you feel about yourself than the way you felt about him, but that’s a good thing because it means you’re on the path to healing. i thought i’d never get through it but i did. you deserve to give that care and attention to yourself and it will get easier each day with more practice :) good luck 🫂