
I know and I know comparison is the thief of all joy and ppl are probably looking at me thinking I’m successful and beating them in life, I’m just very used to seeing hard work pay off. In school it was studying hard and getting good grades, when I worked part time I got paid and right now there’s no pay out in my life and I think I’m having a hard time navigating that until I can actually start working and making money too
Its really helpful to try and separate success from monetary or educational success. You said you feel like you have no payout right now, but payout and satisfaction can/should be derived from more than just work. Hobbies, hanging out with friends, exercise, those are all activities with payout