And I can’t just do it any day. I work or sometimes I don’t feel good enough to be out there in a swimsuit and then like the UV has to be high enough with Al the clouds this month and the rain is random and weather hasn’t been accurate at all across 3 platforms. So I’m just so angry and upset like I want to be alone is that so much to ask my family doesn’t understand these things and I’m 25. I don’t wanna wear boy shorts for a tan line I want to feel sexy for a change now that I feel grown idk.