That breaks my heart :( but that's exactly what I meant. Not that you're not secure in yourself, but around others which is totally valid. Your life will change so drastically if you move to a liberal city, trust. The uni in my city teaches pronouns and identity as part of its freshman video curriculum. The uni I went to in a rural area did not. It's not you it's others for sure. This one person across the country will be good for you to text and hype you up and may not result into anything BUT
I am actually in a liberal city in a liberal state hahaha, but more people are transphobic than you think, or at the very least extremely ignorant or misinformed. We do the pronoun thing in emails and have several queer orgs, but as someone who kinda sees herself as cishet and passes most of the time it’s not the crowd I’m really a part of. I’m too female to be queer and not female enough to be straight 🤠 but really it’s okay I just need to vent here sometimes. Thank you 🥰🥰