because i didn’t have a job (i start tuesday now). they are never there for me emotionally or mentally and often push my feelings aside. my mom was emotionally an physically abusive growing up. she’s going through all my things since i’ve been up here bc it’s “her bedroom” (it’s mine, she calls my room her room since it’s in her house) i want to give them 2-3k when i move out and cut her off…i feel horrible doing that. idk…i know they are helping now bc i have somewhere to live but i can’t stay
i feel like i’m 16 again trying to survive (im 23). she is treating me like a child, trying to push me out the way when im making food bc im not doing it the way she wants, or how i don’t clean my room the way she wants or anything. i don’t even like when she hugs me. i like her but i don’t love her anymore and i feel horrible saying that…she used to chase me around the house…throw the fucking vaccum at me. would defend my friends over me…