and we also have a roommate with us who's paying a third of rent, so she's being fucked over too if he doesn't come back. if i did this shit he would never forgive me. but i'm actually worried he's having some kind of mental health episode with the way he's been acting lately and i've been reaching out to his family but they don't know why he's being an asshole to everyone either
just venting! it’s nice to be able to type it out and send it into the void i'm just devastated at the idea of leaving behind the life i've built with him, our lives are so intertwined at this point. i'm so scared of having to start all over and i really do love him so completely. literally last week he was talking about how we were going to save up to buy a house for a future family, something we've always planned for
we were literally planning our future and relaxing and having fun together last week. but he gets so moody and distant and then lashes out when I try to talk to him about it. he completely shut down and it made me depressed and he just wouldn't talk to me, and then he just left. i have no idea where he went but I found a go-bag in our car before he left, so i knew it was coming (or that he was cheating but i rly don't see him doing that).
we lived together for over six years and he left our dog (who he had for years before we were living together) behind with no note for anyone about where he's going or when he'll be back, i don't even know if he's safe. i don't have a job and he was paying our rent so i just feel so completely fucked over and devastated and lost right now
He sent me one text today: “Hey, I went to Florida, I need some time to myself” My sister in law (his brothers wife) texted and confirmed that he’s with them and that she didn’t know that he and his brother had been planning this but she thinks it’ll only be a week. I just have no idea what to do at this point. I’ve already started applying to jobs and talking to my roommate about future steps but this isn’t what my life looked like AT ALL last week and i’m so completely torn apart.