
I love him so much, I know he wants to go further and there’s been times where I’ve intentionally done things to fluster him (dragging him in by his tie, tossing him onto the bed), or told him he could do things knowing I’ll get flustered (pinning me to the wall) but I have no clue when I will stop being panicking about going any further and I know logically I’m safe with him, but I don’t know if i will ever feel 100% safe with anyone