that’s frustrating. i don’t have an ed but i’ve been working on my relationship with food because i worry i might develop one. what helps me is thinking of weight as a good thing, like i wanna get muscular (muscles weight more than fat), also thinking about food as fuel/strength and how much better i feel after i eat and have energy. but it’s hard when you aren’t getting personalized guidance, a lot of things are easier said than done. i hope you get better! ❤️