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Update: after 90 hours of being in labor my body finally gave into the preeclampsia and i had to have an emergency c section but im so happy that my baby boy is happy and healthy. Thank you for everyone’s words of encouragement on my last posts!At the point of the c section i just had to accept that it had to happen. My body started to crash, so mentally it was okay that it was happening. Am i happy it happened no, but im happy that i get to see my son and husband become a father. Physically it hurts but its significantly less painful than my body trying to die. It hurt not being able to hold him directly after the birth but being able to hold him now will forever make me so happy. Just being a mom now made all of this worth it.