When I was inducted into tri M the only dress I could find in my size was from Macy’s. I hated the dress. Felt MASSIVE in it. I found the dress after I came home from college a month ago. It’s a beautiful dress that I wouldn’t be able to fit a thigh in now. I was so hard on that little girl for no reason.
it’s a cycle, which sucks :/ in middle school, i hated my body. in hs, i looked back on those pictures and thought i looked fine, while at the same time STILL hating my body. now looking back at my hs pictures, i think i look fine. i don’t hate my body now, but i’m not very confident in my appearance. i know that in the future, i’ll look back on pictures now and think i look fine… and so on.
Yeah, as a trans woman I do kinda wish I had that time back. But at the same time I realize I was just a gender confused kid being bombarded with toxic masculinity and male socialization and edginess. I don’t know how I would have properly discovered myself going thru all of that, but I still wish I had come out sooner.