
I was 14 years old went I received a dick pic for the first time by my then-bf and I was so scared and horrified that I had a massive anxiety attack and started violently shaking. I was laying in bed when it happened and I still remember praying that no one would walk in right then because my family would think I was having a seizure because I was shaking so hard. I’ve never experienced anything like it, it was horrible and I was so traumatized
I literally felt my innocence and childhood slipping away in that moment. I was devastated and I made my then-bf promise to never do it again. I remember texting my friends what just happened and they had to calm me down because I was so scared and upset. I still remember it all so clearly because it was so awful.
As an awkward person, I told my bf I’m awkward in bed just like in everything else and he was like that’s okay I still like you for you. Sex has never not been awkward for me. But as someone who lives life that way, it’s normal in a sense? It’s not going to be like it is in the movies or p*rn. Like at all.