Last Sunday, he said he was questioning our relationship and said he would give me a better answer in a couple days as he had a lot on his mind and wanted to give me a more thoughtful response. This took me quite by surprise, leading me to tell my mom that I thought we were going to breakup. Leading to the breakup after Sunday, he was VERY distant, contrary to his insane level of importance on communication, which in hindsight was preparing me.
I’m incredibly grateful for other things leading up to the breakup as well, after I had just gotten back from work, one of my bffs texted our groupchat and asked if we were free to do something, it was a beautiful day and we went to the same park that I would be broken up with the next day. It showed me the value of having girlfriends to support you, even though I had not mentioned any doubts about my relationship.
Tuesday, when we broke up, was overcast and rainy, fitting the mood. It still felt so sudden and I asked if he was interested in someone else. He said absolutely not, and he has no desire to date around. He even said that he may never find love again as I’m the first girl he saw a future with, which surprised me. I told him I wanted him to find love again and that we’re young. I did not cry or tear up that whole time we were together that day, but he did both.
Seeing him cry gave me comfort in that he really didn’t want to do this either. He had a deep respect for me and did not want to lead me on. It ended on good terms for both of us, and while I’m sad it ended, I can also be happy that it happened as it was a beautiful relationship till the end. It showed me how good a man can treat you, chivalry, protection, and so much more. He just believed that our differing lifestyles, even both as Christians, plus communication were too much to overcome.
The last few days since breaking up, I also haven’t cried or asked him to change his mind. I feel free and actually happy. I believe everything happens for a reason. I’ve been blessed to be surrounded by my brother and his friends and having a blast! Last night, one of them asked about my bf and I said we broke up. It ended up becoming a therapy/ yap session for the whole group as they were all so kind and shared experiences of their own breakups.