
basically, i havent ever rlly gotten farther than a crush with a guy. like ive kissed and done stuff with a guy, but i was just experimenting and didnt have any feelings for them any guy i have had feelings for, i have felt the need to tell them. in theory i tell them so that they can reciprocate it or not, but even if they DO reciprocate it…. i run!!
funny story….. in second grade i was rlly close w this guy. he was super cute and we chatted it up like crazy. it was very comfortable and there was clear chemistry….. i was crushing hard so i had a mutual friend tell him i liked him… he told me the next day he liked me to…. i literally never spoke to him again
i went from talking to him every day, to avoiding him heavy in class and practically running away if he approached me. what the fuck does that say about me??? and then more recently ive had plenty of situations where i find out a guy i liked likes me back, and i still never let it amount to anything i don’t fear commitment. i am very loyal naturally. i don’t fear intimacy, i dont fear any of the typical things. i just cannot imagine myself ever being in a relationship
my friend was in a similar situation before she realized she was lesbian. she’d date men but as soon as it came to something more, she got icked out and left. she’d date men liked the idea of men but not actually men. try dating some women just to see where it goes and how you feel. nothing wrong with it. you’ll be okay, nothing is wrong with you, you’re just figuring it out 🫶🏻