I get hyper aware of anything a man does or says to me if I know they are taken and I don’t wanna be that girl who get drama dumped on me. But then again it’s fucked up bc I accidentally get eye contact a lot and I don’t even want THAT
I get intrusive ocd thoughts about liking or having a crush whenever Im around them to protect myself bc I never used to realize they would develop interest in me and it bothers me so much.