Girl you are just finally living life after the breakup. In every relationship I was in before I used to be like “I cannot live without you” but I survived the breakups. I made it out the other side and man it was amazing. I think that’s what’s happening for you. You were so used to him being a constant in your life and now he’s not and it shifted your reality. But now I’m guessing you’re going on to do other things that make you happy. Just take this time to figure yourself out
and idk like i feel like i’m kinda ready to date again now? but i also feel like that’s so soon i’ve barely been single for 2 months. and i don’t want to jump into another relationship or anything but i miss having someone to talk to yk? idk it’s weird bc i always said if we broke up i would be dead and not be able to date anyone for like 2 years, but now 2 months later i feel pretty good about it? i guess i just don’t know if i should force myself to wait longer or allow myself to look smth 2/2