
I swear I could research and write papers all day without blinking if I wasn’t stressed about money. If I didn’t think about every cent I’m wasting if I don’t get a good grade. I think every day about how much I’m missing what I’m actually interested in favor of something that will make me money afterwards. I wish I could go into history, or philosophy, or SOMETHING but no. I have to stick with STEM bc I need to make money 🙄
You are 100% not alone, that’s how I felt and it’s a major reason why I decided to pursue a PhD. I heard it was five years of more school and that sold me. I do remember feeling, however, that I wish I could get a router education after college, a PhD is notably, rather narrow. . Those I had to pick up on my own through audiobooks mostly and YouTube explainer channels, but not a formal education.
Often I was made to feel like the desire to be a forever. Student was a crazy person thing, characteristic of some kind of insecurity. That is not the case, it’s rooted in curiosity. I think we are expected to see education as the means to a job, I see a job as the means to pay for an education. Education is the fun part.
lol a lot of typos from voice to text. But a PhD is narrow by definition, though I found some of what I wanted by doing interdisciplinary research. My dissertation covers genetics, computer science, design, and arguably some business. But interests like history, engineering, physics, get somewhat satisfied with YouTube, audio books, etc.
You know what’s wild, there’s a SCARY disdain for the humanities in stem, and what I would argue is a dangerous ignorance of it. My PhD is genetics, and no once did we have a history class on the field. So you got people that know how to edit genes but never covered “3 generations of imbecile are enough” in a class. That’s concerning to me