Ik I shouldn’t it’s just so fucking hard. It’s been a year where I improved myself beyond recognition but I have realized lately while although I’m okay being independent, I hate being alone cause I want to do dates and stuff. I also got led on by someone who I thought was a friend who I’ve kinda had a thing for but was respectful and didn’t want to jeopardize said friendship but I ended up just being a fucking idiot and i my ex just feels like the easy fix
Idk it’s just shitty. Life feels like it’s falling apart for me and I just can’t breath and I got made fun of because of how stressed I am by someone who I thought was a friend and I literally helped her less than a month ago through a hard time and now all she’s saying is how dramatic I am being when she doesn’t even know the whole story nor does she care about asking