Anonymous diphenhydramine 13w

But like. No one cares. No one is checking up on me and they knew I’ve been struggling. I know it’s not smth they care about themselves, but it mattered to me. And I’m just slowly dying here. What’s the point? The only one who cares is me.

1

Anonymous OP 13w

i care!! and if you don’t have anyone irl that cares right now, then i don’t think they’re good people to have around. you’ll find people who will care, who will check up on you and worry about you and love you like you deserve. heck, girl if you need it i’ll check up on you

1

Anonymous diphenhydramine 13w

Well, you’d think my parents would care. I think my best friend cares, but she never asks so who knows. Everyone else I knew either only texts me in group settings or when they need me. Yet everyone else hears from them.

1

Anonymous OP 13w

i’m sorry. i’ve been in this situation. it sucks, i know. i wish there was something i could do or say that would help. ik you can’t dm me but id always be willing to listen whenever you need

1

Anonymous diphenhydramine 13w

I just think it shows when everyone knows that I crashed last fall. And I give plenty of signs. I reach out. And no one. Not one person. Seems to care to reach back out or just make sure I’m not on the verge of smth

1

Anonymous diphenhydramine 13w

Really? I mean, I doubt your problem is as stupid as mine. I feel like maybe people are right and that I am overreacting to what’s happened. But I genuinely think I’m going right back to where I was four years ago and I don’t wanna go back there

1

Anonymous OP 13w

oh honey there’s no problem that’s ever too stupid to be heard!! in fact, you’re sounding a whole lot like me. five years ago i was about to end it, then last fall i fell right back to where i was. had to crawl out of there bit by bit and kept slipping back down.

1

Anonymous diphenhydramine 13w

Yeah, well don’t tell my family that. They’ll let you know I’m “overreacting” and “need to put it all away and move on” because I’m wasting my life grieving for something that means nothing to anyone else. I won’t ever do anything anyways. I care too much to hurt my people like that.

1

Anonymous OP 13w

hey, we all carry our griefs and our battles. i’m sorry no one understands it or gives you the space you need to just feel it. i’ve mourned the same person for four years and cry or have panic attacks over such tiny things. it feels dumb, but everyone has their own road to healing. take your time and give yourself the kindness other people are to blind to give you

1

Anonymous diphenhydramine 13w

It’s not like no one cares, I shouldn’t say that. I feel like it, I’m sure if I really told my bff or family how bad it was they’d be there for me. But I just can’t. They all got worse issues than my stupid problems. Thanks, though. It’s nice to hear I’m not totally alone

1

Anonymous diphenhydramine 13w

I think I’m just in a bad head space. Thanks for chatting, kinda helped calm me down a bit :)

1

Anonymous OP 13w

you’re never alone. if i’m so for real even after i felt like i was getting better, there were nights i thought of sh or just letting go entirely. still do, but they’re less frequent. its so hard to open up. for what it’s worth, im proud of you for at least being open tonight on here. and this is so cliche to say, but just because other people have problems doesnt mean yours aren’t worth being heard and cared for too

2

Anonymous OP 13w

anytime!! i turned my dms open on this message so if you ever need to chat again, you can message me directly. hopefully i’ll see it, but even if not i can be a place for you to dump your emotions out

1

Anonymous diphenhydramine 13w

I thought you’d wanna know that you gave me the courage to call one of my friends and just talk to them about what’s been happening. I just got off the phone, and they had no idea it was still this bad and we really talked it out just now. I feel so much better now,thank you so much for talking with me

5

Anonymous OP 13w

omg this message was so sweet i’m actually all teary 🥹😭 im so glad that you were able to talk with someone. i hope it was a weight lifted off your shoulders. rooting for you on your journey to the top of this

2

Anonymous diphenhydramine 13w

I dont think my parents will change, but I’m glad someone knows how bad it is right now. They promised to keep checking on me to make sure I don’t get this bad again. It is totally a weight off me

3

Anonymous diphenhydramine 13w

Idk who you really are, but I think you may have entirely turned my summer around. My friend talked me into talking with my parents, and this is the first time I’ve told them how bad things got and they actually understood. Idk if things will change, but I’ve never been this open before. Thank you so much again💛💛

2

Anonymous OP 13w

you have no clue how happy these positive updates make me !! is it weird to say i’m proud of you?? i am proud of you tho. we could be on other sides of the country, but i’d still listen and talk anytime. side note, also. our initial conversation called me out so i opened up to one of my best friends who i hadn’t been open with about how id been feeling for the whole time we lived together. it really is so relieving, isn’t it?

2

Anonymous diphenhydramine 13w

Yeah it is, my friend and I have now openly talked about both of our feelings and it’s so nice

1