OP I would advise don’t make your weight loss your only/ biggest goal, especially if it creates a lot of stressed emotions (which it sounds like it is). Instead, I challenge you to find a type of workout that makes you feel comfortable and satisfied (definitely does not have to be gym). You can try swimming in a nice pool, rock climbing, taking walks around a nature reserve, etc. The idea is to gravitate toward these activities when you need an emotional pick-me-up—>