It’s interesting that the psychological effect of hopelessness would lead you to nihilism. Even if it doesn’t end up meaning anything in the end, everything means something now, in the present and near future, for sure! 👍 Enjoyment is diminished a lot with depression, which I think may be part of why you feel apathetic, since as a hedonist, I personally think there’s meaning in simply enjoying things in life. Take care of yourself OP