I def look up to him. When I was alone and I just laid in bed and did nothing and was in a very dark place, I would tell myself, “If Huening Kai can dance for hours, constantly go to photo shoots and work as hard as he does, I can get up and clean my room.” I kept that mentality for so long that now I have the motivation/energy to shower regularly (gross I know but hey, thats depression.) I also am getting a little better at keeping my room clean and looking at going to therapy :)