
This is a sign of depersonalization and dissociation, which could point to a couple things: you may be trans (if you don’t know you are already; if not, this explains this sensation at least partially), and in addition to that you likely have a dissociative disorder of some kind. We have DID and have the feeling “I can’t hurt this body because it’s not mine to hurt” all the time, as a different but comparable example
It’s possible but not something other people atleast online could tell you, I will say as a trans girl (I think?) I still enjoy wearing boxers and dont mind my jiblets but I have started E and plan to still be mostly masc so it’s not clean cut based on representation but the internal disconnect could certainly be trans related