I 100% get what you’re saying but there are safety reasons why you start low and gradually move up in dosages. It’s very standard to start your first month on a low dose to avoid more severe side effects, and move up in dose monthly or bimonthly until you see the feminization effects you want to see. If you have a knowledgeable and trustworthy doctor, please follow their medical advice and guidelines for your safety (and ofc always advocate for yourself)