Anonymous mother_russia 2w

You aren’t terrible for having feelings and intrusive thoughts, it’s a difficult thing to deal with

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Anonymous mother_russia 2w

it’s so hard when i love them both so deeply i can’t imagine my life without either of them in it. i lived with my best friend all of college and this is the first time we’ve both lived not only out of our home state and but also not together (while also not living with our families) and i can’t imagine ruining this. but it’s consuming every single thought and i just feel like a really awful person to be so confused by my feelings

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Anonymous OP 2w

and i’m worried if i tell anyone about my feelings (not that i ever intend to act on them or disrespect my partners boundaries) that it will make everything hyper-emotional for everyone and it will blow up my life. which is even worse when outside of my twin sister they are really the only two people i have to talk to

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Anonymous OP 2w

but it’s also making it really hard for me to ever really be fully present in my own life and with my partner recently, i feel like i’m in a constant state of dissociation where i just want everything to be perfect and it’s not. i want to be happy in my life and be happy for everyone else but im so consumed by shoving down all these confusing feelings that im just existing

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