Being a woman isn’t supposed to feel like anything. I’ve been a very masculine woman at times and feminine woman at other times in my life. It changes by the day, hour, minute and second. I actually don’t think femininity or masculinity makes up what makes us who we are at all because that just puts us in boxes and it’s inaccurate. I’m just a woman and that shouldn’t have anything pre-attached/stereotyped to it and it doesn’t define who I am as a person
I mean I get what you’re saying in terms of not attaching yourself to stereotypes, but I don’t really agree on the other part. Some people genuinely do experience specific feelings living as a woman, either positive or negative. For example, when a trans woman feels gender euphoria from passing well in public or if a woman is upset with the way she looks because she doesn’t feel feminine enough. I happen to just not feel any emotional connection from being perceived as a woman at all
It used to haunt me everyday that I was too masculine of a woman and I thought I was trans for many years because my brain wouldn’t let the thought of how people perceive me shut off. Now I can be a GNC woman and I also don’t have to have the whole pronoun conversation once I realized my pronouns also don’t define me as a person, it’s just how people perceive me and now I couldn’t care less
For context, my body dysmorphia fed into what I thought was dysphoria, leading me to wanting a sharper jawline and skinnier legs. Once my body dysmorphia was treated, that really helped instill that I don’t need surgery to be a man and that I can just live in my body and present however masculine or feminine I want. I know people don’t really like to hear detransition stories but I just wanted to share my thoughts and experience with gender
as a trans woman, my euphoria is less from being perceived as a woman, and more as being perceived how i want to be perceived. that presentation just happens to align a lot with what’s traditionally associated with “woman” or “feminine”. for me at least, it’s more about being seen as the true me. now societally, the ideas of “women” and “men” are very strong, so people tend to gravitate towards them, but that doesn’t mean people are required to feel connected to those constructs.
no i think this is perfect! detrans or not, you found who you really are and that’s the whole thing the trans community supports:) i definitely agree that trying to align with gender constructs is very restrictive for that process. because irl it’s very unlikely that someone will perfectly fit a construct, especially since the “requirements” of them are constantly changing.