
like seeing a male celebrity/idol and being like “DAYUM I NEED DAT.” to me it’s all fun and being silly, but then i wonder if i could actually tolerate a man or if he’s better off like a pet rather than a romantic partner. personally, i’ve had a few experiences where i felt emotionally connected to a man, but it dwindled quickly and then i got bored
I think thats called a friendship bestie, but idk. If you ever have actually felt attracted to a man i think may sapphic would be a better descriptor for you? But i thought genuinely i had been attracted to men before as a lesbian but i realized later it was a desire to be desirable being fulfilled not an actual attraction if that makes sense
i definitely think that the adrenaline of “fitting in” with my friends has contributed to my perception of my relationships with men. i constantly feel like i need to prove stuff, so i tend to do intense things really fast (only to regret it later). one example: dating a guy after 3 days of knowing him. another example: sleeping with guys the same day i meet them. the list goes on.