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LGBTQIA+ 4w
I don’t know if I can hold on anymore. It feels like nothing is real-I know I like girls but at the same time I keep asking God to help me, to free me from it if it’s so wrong but he won’t answer nor do anything. Please someone who’s gay and pray help me
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Anonymous 4w

As someone who was raised Christian and forced into conversion therapy at one time in their life as a kid. I’m a 23 year old adult now…and I’m still bisexual. I have a new personal relationship with God. If it is really important to you learn that he loves you regardless of scripture. You are of his image, how amazing is that? If you truly don’t want this, you can resist the urges but personally I suffered so much pretending to be someone I truly wasn’t.

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Anonymous 4w

I understand what you mean on the expectation side…I was raised in the church with my grandpa as a deacon. Honestly building a relationship with him was difficult due to the hate I got from my religion. So I had a small break and learned what my values were. I looked up scripture that went along with him. I made nature my church since it is his creation. Having some alone time just listening to your surroundings and just saying thank you for the little things. Like the butterflies, the flowers +

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Anonymous 4w

How were you able to build that relationship with God if you don’t mind me asking? Maybe I am doing it the wrong way?

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Anonymous replying to -> #1 4w

I know he loves me regardless but I just keep feeling so worthless because I am from an immigrant family and as a first generation there is so much expectation for me to meet and I feel like such a piece of shit for not meeting them. I feel judged for wanting to work on my mental health and live my sexuality. I keep trying to have a relationship with him, I started reading the bible regularly but it feels like nothing is happening and he is not answering my prayers and I am left in the doubt.

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Anonymous replying to -> OP 4w

I feel like resisting the urges just make me miserable and i am way happier when i do not think about it but as soon as i am with my partner and my family is around everything just comes back up. I am overly angry, emotional and overstimulated.

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Anonymous replying to -> #1 4w

Anything that you can see, hear, touch. He knows them. I may not have a typical church style relationship with my faith but I am so much happier now knowing that no matter where I go it can be a church. Faith is limitless it just depends on what you personally perceive

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Anonymous replying to -> #1 4w

I tried faking being the cis straight southern Christian girl for a few years but honestly…it wasn’t me and I knew i couldn’t keep lying to myself because technically it’s in the commandments. #9 I know it’s saying neighbor but I tied it to myself. Lying about my true self isn’t what God would have wanted. He wants you to come as you are.

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Anonymous replying to -> #1 4w

I hope I am able to get to this point. I have been going out a lot in nature since I started working on myself and it’s been what works the most in calming me down. I also think I will slow down on internalizing the literal meanings of the bible like you said and learn my own values. Thank you so much! As someone who came from a country where there was no resources for the community I am thankful about being able to write about this and get some advice on it.

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