To me, your phrasing is very important. Are you not wanting to be actively sexual (aka you have sexual attraction but are choosing to not act on it rn) or are you not actively wanting to be sexual (aka you’re not experiencing sexual attraction but you’re passive as to whether or not you participate in it sometimes)
The second one is definitely on the asexual spectrum at least, if not fully asexual (I’m no expert on the lines). Feel free to dm me if you don’t wanna elaborate on the post, but wym in terms of shame? I only ask because I could see it coming from several different directions that would require different advice. But you don’t have to share at all if you don’t wanna 🫶