I get it man. When u reach a place like this u only got a couple option. Gotta go nuclear. If you feel like you’ve be disproportionately affected by life, too much cruelty unfairness whatever you need to double down a push positivity outward. Someone was mean to you? Go be nice to someone. Someone called you ugly? Go boost the confidence of someone else. Feel alone and rejected? Go up to a homeless man and buy him a meal. Only way to fix feeling like this is to become a pillar of positivity and
yk what they say, an artist can never truly appreciate their own work maybe you're ugly to you, but that's just it ugly to YOU just because you don't appreciate your own beauty doesn't mean other people don't see it I invite you to try and find things about yourself that you like instead of focusing on the things you wanna change we all know you're gorgeous man so try seeing for yourself
Play to your strengths man so what if your ugly who tf cares nothing you can do about it but everyone has their strengths and weaknesses. Play into yours, make up for what you may lack in looks. Also you’re probably not as chopped as you think you are and again it’s irrelevant to your worth as a person