I completely understand that state of mind and I hope I don’t sound stupid saying this but I really hope you can find hope for yourself and your future. You are an incredible person, whether you believe it or not, and you deserve to be able to live a long healthy life. I love you! I am proud of you! Hang in there love.
Yeah I had a bit of time away from this. My friends are really good about hanging out and expressing their friendship with each other but idk what I’m doing wrong cause I never end up being invited along or included in those connections in spite of being told that I would be in the future. I might just be bad for their vibes and I guess I can’t blame anyone for not wanting to be close with me!