I have the social energy of an uncooked potato right now so I’m not much help, but I just want to say I hear you and that’s so real and you’re in a tough spot with “who needs help more”. The intrusive thoughts sound really hard to kick. I wish you a better rest of the evening 🥔

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codependent girly here: life in a relationship is often crippling because you have to be okay with the fact that other people need your person and sometimes it really really sucks, especially without reassurance. ur not alone. 🤍🤍 my advice incase you want any: tell your person when you feel how you feel (not just when they are needed elsewhere), don’t make them feel responsible (because nobody is responsible for your happiness but you), and try some self soothing methods while they are busy!

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Like a serious call so I left the room. She ended up telling me after the call that she might go back to our hometown for the afternoon/evening bc one of our friends was in crisis mode super suicidal. I kinda felt like I had to push my feelings aside bc mine at least aren’t as urgent as that so I encouraged her to go support our friend. Well now it’s hours later and I’m doing worse and have nobody to talk to about it because she’s still at their house and said she probably won’t be back home-

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Until after midnight. I work in the morning so this basically means I haven’t been able to see her for most of today. And won’t be seeing her until i wake up in the morning. And idk I feel so selfish for being sad and doing bad today bc this friend is doing worse but I really just want my girlfriend because it’s gotten so bad since she left. I tried to push it down and use distractions but unfortunately that hasn’t been working today

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I feel like a bad person for needing her when other people also need her

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