ive wanted to die most of my life but ive been holding on this whole time. i fear im getting close though and it scares me. i just dont want to deal with this horrible life anymore. i dont want to be this miserable girl anymore
i’m sorry about this. it fucking hurts and i feel numb and hopeless. i don’t know why i keep going but the temporary happiness feels good. i’m sad but im hanging in there. not sure if it’ll get better but maybe..?