i have lost pretty much all hope tbh. if i do talk to someone, i don’t get my hopes up bc i know they’ll ghost me in a week. i’m always good enough for short term, but never long. i’ve never once been someones first choice and i have the feeling that i never will be. i have always been the stepping stone in the ground. “someone would be so lucky to have you as their person.” well i think that ship has sailed.