I have been in the exact same position you are right now for two years. But Im going back to college this fall. Things can get better. It took me a lot of work but I feel like it’s gonna be worth it. I’m not the best at talking to people who are feeling stuff like this but trust me I know *exactly* what it’s like to go through this. You may not have much to live for right now (which I dont necessarily believe is true btw) but you very likely could in the future. It takes work but it’s possible.