it also doesn’t help that i used to be double the weight i am now so i literally have zero concept of what i actually look like. i thought people treated me better once i lost 120 lbs because the bullying for my weight stopped but now i feel like everyone thinks im shallow or judges me negatively based on my looks now that im more conventionally attractive (all bodies are beautiful to me but speaking societally)

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and like i also can’t help the fact that im loosing all this weight, its like my body WANTS to trigger me😭

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I’m having a similar problem. Ive had a very unhealthy relationship with my body and food in the past and may have developed an eating disorder. Just when I became confident in my body I started having bad stomach issues. I then lost a bunch of weight bc of that and I feel guilty when I think about how I could easily lose more. Like I just got out of the ED mindset, and now it’s like I’m pushed right back in

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