Anonymous #1 1d

Hey there I’m so happy someone replied but I have gone out of my comfort zone I just always feel like a burden an outcast I just feel so purely isolated ☹️

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Anonymous OP 1d

Yeah I get that but there’s so many ppl out there who feel that way so u gotta remember ur not as alone as u think. Just keep taking it day by day and get help like therapy if u think u need it

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Anonymous #1 1d

I hate to the bearer of bad news unfortunately i have tried therapy It’s just been worse for me I am sober for 6 years now from all substances and every night not a day goes by where I wanna think about relapsing because soberness is the worst pain of all I have a lot of coping mechanisms but at the end of the day I have nothing no one to call my own I just feel so alone and isolated

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Anonymous OP 1d

Wow 6 years is amazing man that’s something to be proud of for sure. Therapy never worked for me either but I thought I’d mention it just in case u hadn’t tried. Sorry you are having such a tough time

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Anonymous #1 1d

Aww thanks so much man I do appreciate it yeah it’s just that I have so much shit going on in my life I have a dog on the verge of death and living with the fact that I will never be normal no matter what pill I am a psycho sometimes I just throw things in anger and break things or I cry myself to sleep no in between I feel like I am cursed no matter what pills I take I will never be close to normal and it sucks I spiral so easy the simplest things can make me go down hill I am a disappointment

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Anonymous #1 1d

I’m not sure if your religious but sorry if I offend you but I sometimes feel like a ghost or in the Bible they say pergutory I sometimes wonder if there was a higher power I have dealt with so much shit it’s been nearly 9 years of my life I have struggled and it only gets heavier I always think if god did exist and can work miracles just wondering why I can’t be fixed

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Anonymous OP 1d

Yeah I know about all that stuff but no I’m not religious. Some ppl get a lot out of that and they say it saved their life or whatever but that’s never been the case for me. I don’t want to be disrespectful if u believe in all that but personally I wouldn’t count on some higher power to magically fix all the problems in your life. However, things can always naturally get better so there’s no reason to think your life is doomed

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Anonymous #1 1d

Yeah for sure your spot on no one changes it magically that is why I have been working on myself I torture my body day in and day out I workout not because I wanna but because I have so much pent up rage and pain that it sucks but sometimes I do wonder what this is all for what’s the goal I’m a college student no friends and good grades I just be reflecting a lot more tbh I’m ok but just very confused and dealing with lots of pain especially about my childhood puppy being on the edge of death

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Anonymous #1 1d

Ang yeah I don’t wanna sound weird or cringe but if you saw me you would never know I’m the sad and angry one I always am so happy I go above and beyond for everyone else because I want people to feel good never as bad as I feel a majority of the time

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Anonymous OP 1d

Damn yeah sorry about your dog that sucks. That’s cool you’re using the anger to your advantage in the gym tho definitely keep doing that it’s good for mental health. I lost a shit ton of weight this year and it made me feel much happier but I understand the loneliness too. All I can say is I don’t worry abt it anymore tbh. You’ll be fine

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Anonymous #1 1d

Aww thanks honestly this make me feel better I’m happy you lost weight that’s a amazing achievement you should be proud of yourself and yeah I’ve been crying and he isn’t gone just old age can’t wrap my head around losing him he is my best friend one who greets me on my bad days and good days my passenger buddy I just can’t fathom such a thing every time I go home I see Father Time gripping his hands tighter on my little boy he is very slowed down god it sucks when your in love so much it hurts

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Anonymous OP 1d

Yeah it’s sad but they all gotta go some day. Good luck man

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Anonymous #1 1d

Appreciate it I really do appreciate your time thanks so much

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