They also scared me into thinking I was so incapable and too stupid to do anything. Now ever since I realized they were toxic, I was still too scared to do anything and mad that I wasted my life being scared bc of how they made me feel, now I feel like I have no opportunities bc I messed up my grades in college bc I saw no point in trying bc I thought I wasn’t gonna get anywhere, now I know what I actually wanna do but I have no experience in jobs, volunteering, internships or extracurriculars