
Life is difficult, and we will all die some day. Don’t be hasty trying to leave early, it might be painful now but there’s a world of hope and joy waiting out there for you. There are people who smile seeing you now, and many more bonds to make in the future as well. Your life is a gift, treat yourself with the respect you deserve. I believe in you, now believe in yourself and pick your chin back up.
I promise there is light in your future. I was there too. But you have to persevere. You are worth it. I absolutely recommend trying antidepressants if you can, literally a life changer. But you are not a problem, you belong on the earth just as much as everyone else. Things will get better. They always do.
I don’t know how exactly you came to that conclusion but I know what that kind of conclusion feels like. If there’s anything I could’ve told my past self it’s that it’s not about life just “getting better”- you MAKE it better. You have to finally believe that you have the power to change from the desperate place you find so familiar. YOU have the ability, even if it seems small, to show those people that you own your own life without it being extreme. When the chips are down, choose freewill