Anonymous #1 1d

I appreciate you trying to reassure me, but I have never had a gf in my entire life, and I am 5 years older than you. I am still willing to guess that you had a bf and had men approach you. My first kiss was at 24 at a party. That was my age when I started going to parties for the first time in my life. And before that, also at 24, I bought a random girl a whole bottle of Tito’s for $20 just so that she could kiss me. That’s all I’ve ever gotten.

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Anonymous #1 1d

And at age 20, if I kept in touch with you, you’d probably tell me you found a bf or did something sexual by age 22 or even 21. I really don’t think you would understand to stay this way into age 25. If you did, I think you would understand what it feels like. I am so tired of people making assumptions about me. Telling me “you’re not entitled to sex.” I just wanted to have a normal fucking life. I’m literally just asking for crumbs. I don’t see why cry myself to sleep is “entitled.”

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Anonymous #1 9h

I can’t dm you. Could you just reply to my comments

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Anonymous OP 8h

Yes sorry omg I was working

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Anonymous #1 8h

Oh ok cool 👍 thanks for taking time out of your busy day to reply

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Anonymous OP 8h

I’ve never had a boyfriend either. When I was in high school guys never gave me attention and stuff until college. I will admit I started working on my looks more and yes I got approached more often but to me it’s still not enough. I also used to get bullied so I’m stuck in that mindset no matter how much attention I do get. Compliments don’t do anything for me and I feel like every guy who does find interest in me is lying. I don’t trust anyone and I’ve genuinely never had sex or done anything

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Anonymous #1 8h

I feel like every person I’ve kissed (5) people total I’m not gonna lie was not really consensual so it just makes me feel even worse.

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Anonymous OP 8h

I understand how you feel GENUINLEY even though we’re different ages and we had different experiences, I used to feel that way too. I’m friends with people who are virgins or never had sex or done anything sexual, has a bf/gf and it’s definitely lonely out here sometimes. Can I ask what do you think is specifically holding you back? Your looks, your personality, anything else?

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Anonymous #1 8h

I’m sorry to hear they weren’t consensual Mine was but I was so awkward at making out This might sound creepy but since the first time I ever went to a party was at age 23 (months away from 24), there was this one girl who a random guy grabbed my hand and pulled me toward and yelled “This guy told me he likes you” And it was a lie, but she was so happy (freshman), I was frozen, she guided me to make out with tongue and grabbed my hands to touch her boobs. She was so nice.

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Anonymous OP 8h

She saw my Instagram because I shared it and she showed all her friends and told them I look good But she kept saying “wow you are old” which definitely sucked to hear. I didnt know how to makeout and she basically taught me and I was so happy, but she cut me off the next day because she goes to another school

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Anonymous #1 8h

I wish someone just went up to me and said they like how I look though I know it must be interpreted differently by you since you’re a girl, but I pray that a girl just grabs my hand again and tells me what to do or tells me she likes me.

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Anonymous OP 8h

Well honestly I’ll tell you if I never went to a party I probably would’ve never had my first kiss. The whole night I couldn’t even tell that the guy was flirting with me, I just thought he was being friendly until he tried to kiss me and I was taken aback. He kept asking and I said no because I was scared and I didn’t know how to kiss lol. Also my Friends and everyone was watching so it felt really awkward. I kept saying no she he didn’t rlly care after he kissed me I was just like okay let me

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Anonymous #1 8h

Do it to get it over with and I was scared and told my friends I felt uncomfortable

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Anonymous OP 8h

yeah I will say it’s definitely easier as a woman because guys like any type of girl really also can I dm i don’t wanna keep talking on comments 😭

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Anonymous #1 8h

I know it sounds like an excuse, but it’s family’s religion more than anything. I was raised in a very strict Muslim household where they said even “shaking hands with a woman” is a sin, and my dad would monitor me carefully to make sure I never “sinned.” They said “No girls are allowed in this house except if they are family, and they must wear the hijab.” We could never do sleep overs. They ALSO said “bf/gf” relationships are a sin. You just go straight to marriage (basically arranged) …

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Anonymous OP 8h

And it’s just all of this guilt they put in me (even though I am NOT religious myself; I hid this from my whole family since I was 10 years old out of fear, still until this day) that has made me paranoid and scared to date. It is also all the lack of experience from holding me back that ruined my self esteem, plus reading about “looksmax” whatever stuff made me feel like my jawline and eye birth defect and weak chin were to blame

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