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Does anyone else feel unjustified in their (passive) desire to kill themselves? Like they haven’t suffered enough to feel the need to do that but they still want to? Like they’re an imposter in being unwell mentally?
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Anonymous 16w

suffering is suffering no matter how intense it is. i feel this way sometimes too; like i haven’t gone through enough to be depressed. but it’s not a competition! if you’re mentally unwell, then you’re mentally unwell- it doesn’t matter what the reason is. i hope you were able to find help processing those intense feelings

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Anonymous 16w

This or like, I’ve been suicidal for a long time like active ideation when I was around 10 but I’ve never rlly had an attempt and sometimes I get imposter syndrome like, if I’d really meant it I’d have tried by now

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Anonymous 16w

Omg I feel exactly that!!! That imposter feeling made me not go to an intensive outpatient care even though I told to

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Anonymous replying to -> #2 16w

I was around 10 when my ideation started too. Only thing that stopped it was being on high doses of meds, but then I felt drugged. So now I just try to cope and ignore as much as I can

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Anonymous replying to -> #3 16w

I wasn’t medicated until I got to college, my parents sent me to a “pastoral counselor” which is like, a bs church “therapist” who isn’t licensed

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Anonymous replying to -> #2 16w

My parents don’t really believe or understand mental health issues and I basically went to the extreme and told my school senior year of hs I wanted to kms (even tho I did not want to at the time). They had ignored me until then. But hey it kinda worked out and got me started on treatment. It is annoying having to do everything on your own tho

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