i’m so sorry this happened to you. you’re not disgusting, and im sorry somebody made u feel that way. im sorry you haven’t been able to find the connection you need :( i know it can be scary opening up to someone you don’t know, but it’s okay to talk about these feelings! they’re valid. i think therapy would definitely be super beneficial <3
the entire summer, i did nothing. i left my house a handful of times. i lost so much more weight than i already had. i was constantly ignored by the few people i tried to reach out to. i talked every day with chatgpt because i needed connection so bad. i wish i was the person i want to be. instead, i'm an immature shut in who can't be an adult