I just feel nothing right now. They were so dissociative. It scared me. I took that spark. And they saved my life. I’ve never felt this before. I can’t describe it. I broke my emotional dependency. How do I best help them? Remove myself from their life?
We just hung up to go to bed. I was worried about all the wrong things. I feel like I, idk how to explain it. I could see the toll I took + other things in their life. I feel like they’d be better off never having known me. But idk if i’d be here w/o them