Another thing I forgot to mention was my lack of attention span and how it’s become an increasing problem, I can’t even remember the last time I was able to pay attention properly in class both in high school and college. It was something my parents used to get mad about all the time, I would lose focus mid conversation and it’s something I still do now, it’s been seriously hindering my ability to work well in college. I can’t tell if it’s because of I’m lazy and disinterested or something else
Everyone feels like they’re drowning in college at some point even the ones who look like they’ve got it all figured out. Struggling doesn’t mean you don’t belong, it just means your lane looks different. Most people are faking confidence anyway.. college is messy, life is messy, and none of that makes you less. You’re enough just by being here and trying trust me
This is called impostor syndrome. I go to an Ivy and asked myself how they let me in for 2 whole years. That time was wasted because instead of grabbing the opportunity to get less dumb, I got into this loop of not performing because I felt dumb, then using non-performance to prove I was dumb. Remember that the point of college is to develop beyond the state you see yourself in now. It’s literally the best place to do this. And the smarter you get, the more confident you’ll feel to do more❤️