he said “forgive yourself. I forgive you so the only one who hasn’t is you” and im like damn… all these things I ruminate on 24/7 seem like the end of the world to me/ make me feel like a monster, but the people it impacted rarely if ever think about it. im not proud of the things I did pre-treatment IN THE SLIGHTEST, but I forget that I am a different person now so to ruminate on those things only halts my progress…