Anonymous #1 1d

i don’t know how to make it stop

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Anonymous OP 1d

Also something I don’t know how to do. Best I’ve got is forcing yourself to do something that at least partially distracts you from it

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Anonymous #1 1d

nothing works to distract me anymore i can’t concentrate on anything else besides wanting to die so so badly

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Anonymous OP 1d

I know exactly how that feels, I’m so sorry you’re experiencing that right now. Have you considered meds and therapy? Doesn’t always help but it’s something at least

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Anonymous #1 1d

i’ve tried 13 different meds and they don’t work. i’ve had several therapists over the past 8 years and idk talking about my feelings doesn’t make them go away. i’m currently on meds and i do therapy twice a week and nothing has been helping

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Anonymous OP 1d

I know, I’ve tried 10 and none of them make me feel better, I’m actually in the middle of switching again. I don’t know about your situation but my pain seems to be from when my trauma gets triggered my body enters a flight or fight response that lasts for hours and feels like I’m being stabbed in the chest. I think my anxiety and depression are made worse because of that pain. The pain is the main problem. Have you ever tried any grounding techniques? Sometimes I can convince myself that 1/2

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Anonymous #1 1d

2/2 I’m safe and I don’t need to freak out and panic. Deep, regulated breathing and telling myself over and over that I’m safe and ok can sometimes calm it down

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Anonymous #1 1d

i’m sorry you’ve been going through that. i don’t really have any problems w anxiety and yes i have family trauma but it’s not something im directly struggling with. i’m just always sad for no reason

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Anonymous OP 1d

Yeah for me the depression was caused by the pain and anxiety which are made worse by autism. I’m sorry you’re feeling the way you are, I’m trying my best and hope you will keep trying too

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Anonymous #1 1d

i don’t want to keep trying i’m tired of trying

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Anonymous OP 1d

Me too, I fucking hate this shit and it fucking hurts. But please keep trying, people care about you even though it might not feel like it right now.

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Anonymous #1 1d

i know people care about me but i don’t care about that. i genuinely couldn’t care less if my loved ones would be devastated if i was gone. it doesn’t make me want to kill myself any less

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Anonymous OP 1d

Not every day is this bad, sometimes it’s better and it might get much better one day. In the past I managed to string several months together at a time with no pain, it is possible

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