intimacy_fearing_slut
My mom just told me that I’m the reason she almost k!lled herself last time we fought. She says all of her stress it’s all *me* (She always picks fights with me and gets mad when I’m unbothered. And my Dad k!lled himself when I was 5 months old)My mom would tell lies about my step father, and I would get the blame. The last thing she said was that my step father had a crush on me. My little brother heard it and I got disowned, because I got blamed. It now marks 3 years since I ever spoke to my parents. There is a lot more but I don’t want to go into details.
My mom has NPD, she pulls this shit all the time. My dad ignores it. I’m adopted (important for this story) she use to always tell me I’m not allowed to meet my bio mom bc what if I stop living her and want to live with my bio mom forever…. I was like 6 the first time she said that to me, we were doing a family tree project and I wanted to figure out how to add my bio parents
I wish she would go to therapy bc I swear I’m her emotional punching bag, but when I tell her to she says “it wouldn’t help her”. Well it would surely help me! 🙄🤦🏻 I’ve wanted to go back to therapy for years, but the system has traumatized me. I’m still afraid to look for a new therapist