I was just about to say, while you don’t like sharing things quite honestly, anonymity or not, you just shared to a lot of people you don’t know. Which is a step forward in your case. :) you’re not alone in the way you feel and dealing with this is not a night and day change. It’s going to take time and it’s going to take small steps little by little making progress each day and sometimes falling back a bit. One thing I will say is, don’t beat yourself up for those set backs don’t blame yourself
I’m also 24, and have been trying so hard to work on this and being fully open with my therapist. I’ve been with mine for 6 yrs and I’m just starting to open up about the deeper things now. It’s a struggle. You have to learn how to be vulnerable and be willing to risk rejection. And i can’t do either 😭