Ok based off everything you wrote: I’m a marketing student. There are graphic design skills that carry over. You might like that. There are always marketing internships, year round if you’re into sports. Decent place to start. If you can’t afford therapy, there are some good YouTubers like letmesaveyou or good podcasts out there, and if you’re religious at all most priests will do spiritual direction which is always free and the next best thing in my experience. You could always get an (1/2)
And yes I have a degree, but it’s something I ended up hating at the end (graphic design). I know you don’t have to enjoy your job, I’ve already accepted that I’ll probably hate any job I get. But I don’t know how I’m going to function enough to even work like a minimum wage job 😭